Doubts

It is not wrong feeling doubtful
When you have reasons feeling that way
There is none to hang on to..
No wishes, no kisses, no warmth, no comfort....
What is there?
Anger, madness, frustration, grumble, intimidation, hatred....

Still in doubt
Confused...
Perplexed...
Has been mute, deaf and blind...
injustice, unfair...

Maybe..
I should stop doing the same routine
I should defy and strike back
I should stop pleasing others
I should stop hoping it would change

Probably...
I should decide now
whether to stay or just walk away...

Ya Allah,
I am pleading you to give me strength..
to hold back and steadfast..
after all, life is short..